Sure feels good to be blogging again! I’ve been wanting to go back to blogging for some time now , but as with a million other things I’ve been wanting to do, I’ve been either too lazy, too busy, or too preoccupied with work and other routines of life.
My mental and emotional energy levels have been very low for most of what passed of 2008, leaving me uninspired to feel, think and express – to be me. I’ve been on the biggest emotional rollercoaster in the past couple years with a good share of ups and downs (as a lot of you can relate to) at various speeds and inclinations, but recently it’s been quite a bumpy ride down - and a painful one too.
I don’t want to elaborate on the painful way down (the voices inside have done that a million times by now and I’ve elaborated enough to some people and I can’t thank them enough for being there and listening to it all).
Maybe if we were living in a certain thriller movie, a photo on a digital camera might warn you about how dangerous the next rollercoaster ride will be, but we don’t live in a movie scene (and according to the movie, even if you escape the ride, you can’t escape the danger that’s destined for you). I do know that there will always be rollercoaster rides, all of them will have ups and downs – what keeps me going is knowing that none of these rides are final destinations, but more like inevitable destinies that we need to live through…and go on.
Big parts of our destiny, or fate we have no control over, but we definitely have control over how we react to our destinies (let’s leave the discussion of fate and whether we control it or not to another philosophy/religion discussion – as I still don’t completely grasp the concept). Anyway, about a couple months back I decided to react and to totally start over, to detox every aspect of my life and de-clutter it. By doing that I’ve come to realize how much I missed parts of the old me – that I lost along the ride and over the years, and how much of the new me I have plans for.
I realized I’ve written too much for an introductory post, so I’ll leave the explaining the Secret Window title for later. Anyway, I hope you enjoy looking through my window..I do not know what I will be blogging about yet..but do come back in a couple of days for a better peak in 
2 responses so far ↓
Samer // September 9, 2008 at 9:45 am |
It’s good to see you back after the long, long, hiatus. What you described is more or less what I’ve experienced this year so far. A melting pot of opposing feelings, confusion, poisonous amounts of procrastination and couch-potatoness. You coming back inspires me to make a come back myself, albeit the changes in self.
Love the clean style and you using WordPress before me
Secret Window // September 9, 2008 at 9:57 pm |
i like how the positive energy has transferred to u (our psychic cnxn ofcourse
) i hope ur not going thru any major issues..wordpress has more options and control…miss u ya samer update ur blog more often!